Maybe The World Is Crazy and I’m The Normal One

Sometimes, the worst thing you can do when it comes to your mental health is to hold things in.  Yes, you may think it’s all good and “you’ve got this.” And nothing will get the best of you, but one thing about anxiety and depression is that it will creep up on you out of nowhere.  You may feel like you are “just fine”, but internally, the weight of holding things in will eventually weaken you no matter how strong you think you are.  Many of us have a fear of going to someone and expressing ourselves for fear of looking “stupid”, being judged, or looking “weird”.  And that’s okay.  There is nothing wrong with not going to anyone, but you still need an outlet to get all of your emotions and feelings out.  Sometimes, the best way to do it is to write about your feelings and emotions in some way like in a journal or diary.  Doing so will help to get all of those trapped feelings and emotions out in the open and allow you to breathe better.  It will give you a better sense of clarity and a peace of mind.  You don’t have to go back and read them if you don’t want to.  You can write it all down and just throw it away once you’ve got everything out.  The purpose is really just to have an outlet to truly express yourself, be honest with yourself, and just fully open up without the worry of being judged or looked at funny.  I’ve been writing since I was 10 (probably younger than that to be honest) and with all the depression and anxiety I have had in my life, it has really helped me to progress forward and not stay stuck in my own head or in my own mental prison.  Not everyone is as open about their struggles with mental illness as I am so yes, putting this all in the open has never been my first choice, but I’ve always figured that there are alot of people out there like me who just can’t bring themselves to do what I do or they feel like they are alone and struggling.  I want to be that voice to let them know that it’s ok and it can be overcome.  I don’t expect to ever save the world, but if I can reach one person with these blogs or touch someone with them, then I feel accomplished because that’s at least ONE person this has made it all worth it for.   My journey is far from over as I deal with my mental health more often than I would like and some days are a struggle while other days are a success.  But one thing I won’t do is fall down without getting right back up again.  And if you struggle with mental illness, it’s something you shouldn’t allow to happen in your life either. So here we are back in “Stat’s World” to chronicle my journey, experiences, and life in general hoping to reach at least that one person who needs a little bit of comfort and understanding.